The idea of putting pen to paper is a simplistic idea, even
virtually via keyboard and keystrokes.
Hand poised, words flitting through the mind; forwards, backwards,
sideways, up, down, left, right and centre.
But, wait, hold on a minute!
Bam! Suddenly, the mind goes
blank and everything buzzing around and begging for attention has disappeared! Where has it gone? Into the black void of this damned-able thing
called a writer’s block. Is it
person? Plant? Mineral?
Oh, no no no! It’s a bird! No, it’s a plane! Wait, no!
It’s.. it’s.. an invisible barrier that is nearly insurmountable force
that is impassable by the human mind without focus of a muse. What on earth is this sorcery?! I dare say, if it were a human, I would
boldly inquire if it were, in fact, a wizard!
And how dare he (or she, whatever your preference be) deny the flow that
wants to be expressed in any way, shape or form?! Nay, how dare they impede this creative
process? Damn you, writer’s block. Damn you, straight to hell!
My writer’s block came in the form of losing belief in myself
and my ability to write. I don’t believe
that I’m the next Stephen King or Anne Rice, but I do believe I have some
talent or I’d have been told to hang my hat up on it awhile ago. At least, I hope someone would have the
ability to stand up to me and say “Hey, you. Yeah, you right there. Yep, you’re the one I’m talking to! You suck.”
However, all my friends have continued to encourage me to keep
writing. “Write,” they say. As if I am to blindly put my fingers to my
keyboard and hope that something golden comes out of this string I’m spinning
round and round we go. So here I am and
there you are. I am going to return to
the magical world of imagination and expression. I hope I find my way back to the creativity
that used to flow freely through me. I
plan on updating this blog on a monthly basis with my incredibly sardonic and
sarcastic views of whatever flights of fancy catch my.. well.. fancy.
It has occurred to me that while my expressive font may have
dwindled to a dry blotch on parchment, my creativity and imagination continues
to grow by leaps and bounds – especially whilst I’m trying to sleep. I still have as vivid as ever dreams which
range from awesome to incredibly gruesome.
If I could just get what I see in my dreams to paper, who knows? I could write the next occult horror
flick! Wouldn’t that just be
something? Anyway, I’m going to range in
my rambling of these great visions of grandeur and start to work on my next
full(er) piece of.. whatever the hell comes out.
I hope you guys come along for this ride and stick with me
while I find my way back to myself…